Letters from the Lunar Outpost

What I possess I would gladly retain. Change amuses the mind, yet scarcely profits.
- Goethe, German Poet, Dramatist, Novelist, and Scientist (1749-1832)

No One Here Gets Out AliveIn my most formative years as a teenager, I managed to get my hands on the Jim Morrison bio, No One Here Gets Out Alive. I read that book and then I read it a second time.

That book grabbed me, I even took notes as I read it. All through reading it, the fact that I was so enthralled with a self-destructive rock star who only lived to see the age of 27 never even registered a blip in my mind.

No One Here Gets Out Alive probably had more of a profound effect on me than any book I’ve ever read before or since. Beyond the crazy stories of this out-of-control rock star who had the soul of a poet, I was fascinated by how Morrison wanted to destroy the limits of all social conventions and obliterate the bounds of reality.

The book features a quote by William Blake that seems to exemplify the drive behind everything that motivated Morrison, “The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom.”

I took that philosophy to my own heart as well. I felt the only freedom worth perusing was the ultimate freedom found through reveling in complete abandon. Whatever I could get a hold of, I’d take it to the extreme, whoever I could get my hands on I’d have them and make them and then my mind would move immediately to wondering who would be next.

The ultimate reality for me, however, was that the road of excess led to a den of inequity. The freedom of that excessive lifestyle ended up in my enslavement to drunkenness and debauchery.

It’s time for me to now accept a new brainwash where I can unprogram all the compulsions I’ve developed for self-abuse, self-destruction and humiliation over all these years. The time has come for some serious changes.

To all my friends across the blogosphere and throughout the twitterverse, it’s been such a privilege sharing some time with you, I’ve appreciated all the reads and retweets you’ve given me, I’ve cherished the comments you’ve made and the dialogs we’ve had.

So it’s been a blast, but I’m going to have to take a break from the blogging and this whole Internet-thing altogether.

God bless Christian charities, because I’m headed to an open bed that’s available at the Salvation Army. The program is pretty hardcore, this “break from the blogging” involves no Internet (90 days) no cell phones, I don’t think I can even get an onsite visit for 30 days, I’ll be working full-time to earn my room and board with a $5 a week salary for expenses like laundry detergent and toiletries. Most importantly, though, is it’s a faith-based recovery program, so I’ll be getting to know Jesus better than I ever have in my life.

So I’ll be out of contact until the end of November. I’ll even be missing the election for the first time in my life (no worries there, mine would have been nothing but a symbolic vote anyway in a California that’s blue beyond any hope of redemption) so I won’t be casting a vote, but toward the end of that month of November, I’ll be looking forward to seeing you all and returning with a vengeance! Who knows? Perhaps I’ll be returning maybe just a little less belligerent but a good deal sharper.

Hope life is good to you all in the meantime. Fight the good fight, love your loved ones and try to view your every day as a gift (even those days that totally suck.)

I’ll see you all soon. Take care,

Mike

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20 Responses to Goodbye for Now

  • Wow Man… what happened? Well, I can guess what happened… my own experience is a pretty good guide. Try not to drink the holy water Kool-aid. I’ll talk to you on the other side.

  • Good luck, Mike. Your determination is a good thing. Keep that. It will help you through. I’m looking forward to hearing from you whenever you return.

  • You have my prayers, Mike. Godspeed and God Bless!

  • Take heart. God is with you always and in all things. All we need to do is listen.

  • Good for you Mike. We will be here for you when you return.

  • You know in your heart & soul what you need to do to better your life. And that I applaud your efforts in this journey you feel you must take. You have friends here who will be awaiting your return. I am not taking you off my twitter list and I hope you dont close your account. We are not going anywhere.

    Your battle wont be easy but will be worth it. My only bad addiction was to cocaine. 9 yrs clean now. Took me moving 100 miles away but it worked. The addiction will always be alive in me but fighting it one day at a time is working. But day by day you gain strength to fight and never stop. I believe you are a good man and will come through with flying colors. Until we chat again, I wish you all the best and you have my prayers with you. /big southern girl hugs! 🙂

  • You are such a determined individual! I applaude you for that! Good luck to you, I will be right here waiting to hear from you! Muah!

  • Good Luck. Here for you when you get back . BTW, you can always use a absentee ballot.

  • Good luck Mike, please keep your acct. Look forward to hearing from you in November. You are a strong individual, you can do anything you set your mind to. Many of us will be thinking of you and wish you the best.

  • Hi Mike, Good Luck! Will be thinking about you a lot. I know you’ll succeed in this challenge! I will truly miss you on twitter and will watch for your return. Stay safe and heal quickly my friend.

  • All the best in your Hiatus. Will miss your contributions & contact!
    “Charity of Mind is the Gateway to the Soul!” 4 U Mike!

  • Good Luck Mike! Best of wishes and glad you are taking charge of your life! See you when you are out! God Speed! :d

  • Dear Mike, You’re a good man, who knows who or why your roadmap is what it is: William Blake is one of my favorite poets: songs of Experience & Songs of Innocence… My son survived 6 heart operations b4 succumbing & we engraved on his “high cross” at the cemetery Blake’s words:

    TIGER, tiger, burning bright  
    In the forests of the night,  
    What immortal hand or eye  
    Could frame thy fearful symmetry?  …

    … From Songs of Experience – more powerful than “The Lamb” from Songs of Innocence. How could God make the Tiger and the Lamb?
     
    I do believe the “tested” have perspective from heaven & it ain’t easy. However Grace ce is worth the journey. I cherish your honesty & will hold you in my prayers w every gift from nature: the stars, the flowers, the trees, laughing renewal of children… Take good care of yourself, you’re all you’ve got! (Janis Joplin?)

    Maybe take Craig Fergusen’s book: “American on purpose” — he went through some pretty tough stuff & landed on his feet & it’s written w humor as only a Scotsman can…
    All my best – looking forward to hearing from you in the future: “No rain, no rainbows!”
    Connie

  • Be safe, man. I’m past the years and escaped the substance-abuse escapes for the most part, but I know they are mighty demons. I’ve lost good friends to stupid shit that could’ve been handled differently, had they had the character to fight back.

    Get it together, and come back stronger than ever!

    Cheers!

  • Hi Mike,

    Thanks for all your mentions and greetings on twitter. I wish you well and will pray for you to have a fulfilling and meaningful time away as you pursue your personal&spiritual endeavors. Take care of yourself. Remember God does not challenge us with more than we can handle. We have all been chosen for the path we lead, how we choose to deal with it is up to us ultimately, but He chose us for our path and only we can make the right choices in the end. I’m glad it sounds like you are doing what is best for you. May you return stronger and more determined when you return.

    Take care,
    Patty

  • God bless you brother, Jesus Christ is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Jesus Christ released me from all my bondage to drugs and alcohol six years ago, and I testify that Jesus Christ is Lord and God. There is one step and that step is Jesus Christ to be Lord of your life. I pray that God will surround you with many Christian brothers and sisters and that you will begin having a personal relationship with Jesus.

    Love you brother,
    Randy

  • Hi Mike, I will miss you and I wish you much joy with your venture. God will be leading you where your eyes have not seen. It is a true blessing and reward to find yourself with Jesus standing right along side you when you do! What a couragiouse and loving gift you are giving yourself. I hope on your return you share this wonderful and rare experience. It will be an honor. God Bless You and thank you for all your care you gave to me. See you soon Mike. Tina xo

  • Godspeed

    Will be praying for you and will keep a seat on the intertubes for you for when you get back

  • God bless you, Mike. You are a strong man making a tough decision. You have already proven that you are up for the challenge because making the decision to go was the hardest part and few are strong enough to admit they are in need of help. I wish I had known sooner because I would have pointed you towards Teen Challenge as they have the highest success rate and are also Christ centered. However, God will continue to strengthen you as you grow closer to him. You will be missed but I can hardly wait to hear about your success. I suggest you keep a daily diary because you will have such a wonderful story to tell us all upon your return to the WWW. ~ Sharon

  • You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
    Your vote does count, wherever it’s cast by the way, but….
    Anyway, I just want you to know – in the beginning, in the middle, and at the end, it is all about Christ.
    My favorite one of the four Gospels is Matthew, but I love the whole Book. Am telling you that since it sounds like you’ll have some time to read and reflect.
    Would love to visit sometime. I hope your change of life and continued efforts bear much fruit and help you establish that sense of balance and peace you seek. Please stay in touch if you like, or if you can.
    Take care.

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